My life is a blur. I feel like time is literally FLYING. And that I never have enough time in a day. Ever feel like that? How is that possible when I’m no longer employed fulltime? I admit, when I was younger, I occasionally ran into folks who had retired from the large company where I worked. And they always said “I’ve never been so busy in my life!” I always thought ‘well, you’re old, so it just takes a lot of time to do nothing‘, being the snotty, younger, all-the-balls-in-the-air working mom that I was. Well fast forward and I’ve become that person. You know, the OLD one. But it’s not that I’m doing nothing; quite the opposite.
See, I’m still trying to work, albeit at something completely new to me. And I’m learning as I go. SEO Copywriting. It takes research. It takes practice. It takes creating a website, and seeking out potential clients, and getting noticed by Google. I will get very absorbed in a website, or online course, and I blink and it’s 5:p.m. Which means Richie Coldcuts is heading home and will wonder what I’ve been doing all day. When he gets home he finds out what I WASN’T doing: laundry, showering(!) collecting the mail, grocery shopping or anything else that would be helpful or productive (in his eyes). And yet, I was so busy that I didn’t have time to do any of the above.
I keep longing for a week (heck, even two consecutive days) that I have nothing scheduled. Not a doctor’s appointment, not a social engagement, not getting the car worked on, or having to renew my resident parking decal. I really thought when my long career ended, I would have time to read, lay around, sleep late, and okay — do nothing. I crave doing nothing! What would it be like to be bored? Yes, really I WANT to be bored. Just for a day (or two). My standing daydream is laying in a hammock in a slight breeze, drowsing in and out of consciousness. Well, it’s not going to happen this month, nor probably this year! I gotta run now. It’s nearly 4:00 on Friday and I haven’t even showered. What did I do all day? Richie will be here any minute. Yikes!